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I'm lying here sprawled out on our old rigid loveseat listening to the hum of a mower mixed with the subtle background noise of a distant dog barking and the hum of the dishwasher. It's fairly relaxing.

I've been doing a lot of inflection lately.

Is that the right word?

Studying myself - who I am, who I was, where I am, where I've been.

Most importantly where I'm going.

I made some dumb decisions, but I don't regret them. I learned them for a reason. I don't know what the reason is yet, but someday I'll know. Someone somewhere is going to need me to have had those experiences.

I'm so excited about my future, but not at the price of neglecting my present.

I've learned that broader than being an ENFP, I'm a Sanguine (Personality Plus).

I've learned that my primary love language is Physical Touch but followed not too far behind by a near tie between Quality Time and Words of Affirmation (5 Love Languages).

Neither of those are really much of a surprise, but I've also learned things on a still broader spectrum.

We are born with only two fears: the fear of falling and the fear of loud noises. The rest are learned through life's experiences. This also means they can be unlearned.

I've learned that the only cure for fear is action. To face it. Head on.

I've also learned that "You can have a sense of destiny because you know that God has considered every contingency in your life, and He always has your best interest at heart. And that sense of destiny, rooted in the sovereignty of God, helps you pray the unthinkable and attempt the impossible." (In a Pit with a Lion on a Snow Day)

God hasn't given me a spirit of fear. Instead He's over-equipped me with a spirit of power, love and discipline.

I don't really know specifics of where I'm going.

But I know that God does.

And I know it's going to rock my world.

Does anything else really matter?