I Like Chocolate Milk

No, really, I do.

I'm picturing that in Cheese's voice though.

Which makes me think of Bre.

Here's my horse.

It's way past my bedtime and I am delirious and heartbroken right now so I'm just going to stop with that.

Ha.

More later.

I'll update!

So I haven't really been up to much...just stayin out trouble. Working a lot but what else is new.

Sherrie and I went to Chris Baran's wedding in Broken Arrow, OK. It was fun to see him and finally meet his wife and see some other JBU alums. We messed around at Amber Fried's house and visited with the McCulloughs (my accounting prof and the current division chair)and Dr. Walenciak before he flew back to Guatemala. Now I am getting ready to head to St. Louis to hang with the fam and celebrate my sister turning 21. I can't believe she is 21. Its so weird! So I have two days left to work and then I have six days off. Who knows what we will do. My sister refuses to go anywhere where she can't take Missy, her dog. She is quite attached to the spoiled rotten mutt, but she is so gosh darn cute.

And I am also trying to get myself motivated to start working out and being more active so I can loose some weight. Its hard when I run around all day at work and want to just collapse on my bed when I get home. Because other than that, I really don't have an excuse for not working out because I can do it for free here since we have a little gym by the pool. So I just need motivation and to get over being self conscience about going there......

Um....other than that, my friend Amanda is coming in September to hang out and see the sights of Chicago cuz she has never been here and to top it off, U2 on that Sunday. Woot! I can't wait to see them in concert!

And the new Star Trek movie turned me into a Treky. Never thought in a million years I would get hooked on it. If you haven't seen that movie....I very highly recommend it.

Well I can't think of anything else that is going on sooooo adios for now!

Where is everyone?

I guess everyone has been too busy to blog on this lately...

Thus why I am writing this. Though, I don't really have much to say, other than I'm settling into my new job and I should get my visa in a few weeks, though I can't go on my visa run until September because of money issues. Bleh...

Um...yea, I guess that's it in the way of an update... sorry, this is a bit boring...

Oh, how I miss the days of the giant, ugly couch and watching Carly play KH2...

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Blah.

Hiatus

I've realized I don't have enough coherant thoughts to blog when I'm emotionally unstable. I also just don't know how to handle it in general. I'm so used to being a stable support system in nearly every circle of my friends, I simply don't know how to be on the other side of that.

I apologize for all the times I've said "It's going to be okay." I now understand that's the last thing in the world you want to hear and that you don't want to hear anything really, you just want someone to listen to you.

Never in my life have I felt so emotionally unstable and spiraling out of control the way I did the last couple weeks.

I literally wanted to die.

I literally made my room as dark as possible and just layed there drifting in and out of consciousness because I was physically, emotionally and mentally incapable of doing anything else.

I literally hyperventilated.

I literally threw up 3 times within 24 hours even though I hadn't eaten anything to throw up.

I made it through it, but I don't know how.

My boss, by the total grace of God, let me keep my job and I found a new place to live that should be a grand new adventure.

There is one last missing piece that goes without saying, but I sincerely hope that that will work out as well.

I seriously seriously seriously screwed up.

I'm human.