The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

—Miley Cyrus, "The Climb"

Now I understand that I just quoted Miley Cyrus. I honestly hate that this song is by her because I love it so incredibly much and it makes me feel like I'm 13 to admit that. But seriously, those words are so incredibly true, and in my defense—she didn't actually write the song.

I understand that as a Christian my ultimate goal is Heaven, but honestly—what matters most is how I live my life in the time that I have here, no matter how long or short that might be. My friend Angela recently pointed out to me and a couple of my other friends that life does not start at a certain point. I am not in a holding place until I find that right guy or that perfect location, my whole life is my life and it is in constant motion—it's the climb.

I know that Brian has the URL to this blog because I gave it to him when things were good—blogging was a shared interest of ours. Brian, I doubt that you're reading this, but if you are—thank you for being part of my climb, even if only for a couple of months and even if you wanted out for half of it without me realizing it. The time that we spent together will always hold a special place in my heart, and I'm not just saying that to be cheesy.

Next on the climb: moving to Arizona with Katie. I was referring to this as starting over, but I don't think you can actually start over in life. I am beginning a new chapter and a new adventure. I honestly believe I was never designed to stay in one location for a significant period of time, especially not here. I do believe that I will find someone that feels the same way and that we will explore the world together. I have no idea who or when that will be.

Until that day, "that that don't kill me can only make me stronger." (Thanks, Kanye.)

Time to climb.